• Declared that my goal was building and sharing things, and everything else should feed into that including my work and other responsibilities.
• Recognized just how much distraction comes from scheduled events, and vowed to reduce it even further.
• Pondered that I might be destined to be a community manager instead of a maker, and have been mulling this last week.
• Considered how telling people what I think up front works versus inviting discussion from people to emerge what to do. In some cases, people just want to be told. In others, they are looking for collaboration,. I should be mindful of which approach to use when.
• Reported that 60 minutes of cardio every day was having positive effects on my mental state.

Let’s review how the week went from there. (more…)

• Recognized that I have too many schedule-interrupting commitments.
• Accepted even with my reduced goal list, I am still trying to do way more than I can handle.
• Accepted the reality of my distracted brain. I can’t change it, so let me work with it.
• Accepted that herding a distracted brain is a full time job, so it is part of the cost of being.
• Decided that feeling ashamed about it doesn’t help, so to hell with that. Shame doesn’t help me learn or achieve.
• Remembered my main strategic goal is to make new works to share with people, because sharing makes me happy and creates pathways to interesting opportunities.

With regards to making progress on my work and my Groundhog Day Resolutions goals, it’s been slow going. Partly this is because I’ve been building new processes to help manage my distracted nature; the idea is to have a solid foundation and realistic ways to track progress without it all being too overwhelming to remember. But have I made anything and shared it? No. Let’s break it down. (more…)

Time for a weekly update on GROUNDHOG DAY RESOLUTIONS progress!

In my June Report my take-away was that I should remember to stay focused on creating shareable works as my primary productivity metric. I completely failed to do that, and the week itself was not productive. The issues were too many personal commitments and an ear infection; it was extremely difficult to stay focused, and what little focus I had was inadequate to start major projects.

I have antibiotics for the ear infection so that’s resolving, but reducing personal commitments was not as straightforward. I am testing a couple of adjustments:

1. I will brutally limit schedule-interrupting commitments. I used to schedule them when I saw a clear slot in the next week, and this resulted in having too many interruptions to anticipate. It’s hard for me to focus when there is an upcoming event. Also, a quirk of my brain is that such interactions cause 6-8 hours of unproductive recovery time. My brain is too noisy and distracted processing the events that transpired. There really isn’t much I can do about it; it’s just the way my brain works.

2. The second adjustment is accept the reality of my quirky brain. That means acknowledging that I live with ADHD Introvert tendencies. I have the ADHD pattern of needing stimulating input for my brain to start working. I have the introvert pattern of being drained by interactions with people, but paradoxically it is talking to people about what I’m working on that gives me the motivation to do work. These conflicting requirements are difficult to balance!

There are a few additional principles that may help keep me positive despite feeling less powerful:

• I can accept the acknowledgement of my limits without guilt or shame. I think this is really important. Ordinarily I feel bad about not measuring up to my performance goals, not to mention putting the work into having quality relationships with people. I periodically feel terrible about not being able to self-motivate on command. These negative emotions don’t serve a useful purpose; accepting them matter-of-factly as the conditions of my reality and getting on with it seems healthier.

• I can accept that maintaining my “best working condition” is time-consuming and difficult. With my ADHD Introvert qualities, it’s hard for me to stay focused on tasks that don’t naturally give me energy. When I don’t have energy, then my ability to work without distraction is tremendously limited. I’ve tried for 25 years to get around it, and when I’m effective it’s because I also have all the resources I need. When those resources aren’t naturally in my day-to-day work, I have to engage in the work of maintaining them. I need stimulating input, a community of like-minded competent peers, and an abundance of time to myself to even begin to do the difficult work.

Finally, I must remember that my strategic goal is to make new works to share with people. I believe that works I can create and share are the value that is within my power to create. Sharing these works is my preferred way to find new friends and generate income. If I am not sharing my works with people, I am not on the path to success.

I’ve added this to the GHDR 2019 Page, but I have trouble remembering to stay on track, so I’ve taped this sign to my laptop: