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  • Morning People

    February 21, 2007

    Yesterday’s bout of grogginess turned out to be actual tiredness; after taking a long nap in the afternoon, I felt much better and stayed up to about midnight. And lo, the next morning i woke up just a few minutes before the alarm went off! After brushing my teeth, the phone rang and I spent several minutes trying to answer it before I realized I was actually dreaming; it was the alarm blaring in my ear. Oops. Still, I was quite well rested, so I did some exercise, and headed out to the coffee shop.

    I had been hoping that regular morning visits to the same coffee shop would change my perspective on the world. Ordinarily, I’m looking for patterns in behavior or concepts, but now that I’m at the same shop in the morning I’m wondering what patterns observed over time will become obvious. Here’s some observations I’ve made over the past few days, grossly generalizing of course:

    • The 7-8AM crowd has a much different demeanor than the 10AM crowd. The impression I had, very generally, was that these people had time to take 15 minutes or more to ease into their day. Some read newspapers. Others just chatted quietly. Yet, this was not a relaxed atmosphere. It felt like I was surrounded by seasoned athletes who were getting ready to run a practice race, and this was their way of limbering up without any drama. I actuallly ran into an old client of a company I used to work at, a fellow who had always impressed me with his vision of customer service and organizational empowerment. He was surprised to see me up so early, and we exchanged pleasantries. It occurred to me that he is the quintessential early riser, poised and in control of his time, ready to lead his company like he does every day.
    • The 8-9AM crowd seems more in a hurry, and tend to come into the store in bursts. They line up in front of the counter, by now fully marshalled by the morning crew leader, and are served their cups of coffee with impressive efficiency. I imagined that some of these people had deliberately chosen not to use the drive-through window, because the act of spending a bit of time in a store and savoring that first sip of expensive coffee was the extent of their ritual. It is a small luxury, to take a few minutes on the way to work and buy some nice coffee before starting another hectic day at work.

    • The 9-10AM crowd is more relaxed, because for them their day has already started; they aren’t stopping-in on the way somewhere else. The coffee shop is an actual destination for people are getting settled in to have a business conversation with their partners, perhaps preparing for a meeting or client visitation. A few others haul out laptops and quickly get absorbed in their work. Still other people are waiting to meet other people, perhaps an informal interview or introduction, and sip their coffee while looking out the window.

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    p>On this particularly day, the morning people seemed to be quiet yet alert, compared to the late-night crowd I’m normally part of. I suppose it could be that the day was still young and full of possibility, and this was reflected in the way people seemed to smile. It was like I was visiting some alternate reality, though the experience reminded me also of the couple times I’ve visited Canada; people there seem to be more aware of who’s around them, quite conscious of how their actions could affect you and taking care not to make that an inconvenience.

    I also got to see a mysterious pickup truck that had a box built about three feet high above the rear bed, insert with barred openings. It looked like a truck used to transport animals or something. I had seen the very same truck on Monday; apparently, this coffee shop is part of the driver’s morning ritual. There’s a good chance I’ll see it again tomorrow. And so my morning world starts to become a little more real.

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    DSri Seah
  • Grogginess

    February 20, 2007

    So it’s the second day of a 2-week experiment to wake up every day at 630AM. Despite getting to sleep at 10:30PM and falling asleep right away, I am feeling very groggy. So. Groggy.

    Last night’s sleep cycle was weird…I woke up a couple times but didn’t remember anything until 4AM rolled around, when I became very wide awake. My brain was alert, thinking of things to do, while the rest of my body was saying, “C’mon, go back to sleep!” I tried focusing on my breathing, trying to get into the experience of just letting air in and out of my body. It hadn’t occured to me before that maybe meditation was simply about not thinking so darn much. I eventually fell asleep again after about an hour and a half, but when the alarm went off at 630AM it was very difficult to roll out of bed. The morning exercise regimen failed to wake me up, though it did get the blood flowing so I could make it to the coffee shop before 8AM and do the planning for the day.

    It’s 930AM now, and I have my daily plan set before me. My mind, though, is unfocused and weary, and the reason I’m writing this blog post is to kickstart the mental process. Even now, I’m not quite alert, writing automatically with my head listing about 30 degrees to the right. I need some grogginess solutions!

    I decided to see what Steve Pavlina had to say on the subject, as a reader had mentioned his site the other day. His article How to get up right away when your alarm goes off had a crazy-genius suggestion to practice getting up when you’re already awake…the idea is to condition yourself to do things when any alarm sounds, and by practicing this getting up becomes easier. I had a related thought recently about reducing my “lag time” between thought and action; Pavlina’s approach is very pragmatic and implementable. Bravo!

    In the meantime, I’m still feeling groggy, but am slightly more alert, because my curiosity has become activated. I am feeling the urge to do some more investigation of this sleepiness topic. Which itself, I think, is a clue that I’m not actually sleepy, I’m just not that excited about doing the work today. Yesterday was all about starting a new habit, and that was exciting. Today is just day #2, and there’s work to be done. Nothing exciting or glamorous about that, so my mind already anticipating being bored and is playing tricks on me. Which I find very irritating.

    So…I just need to get past that.

    I’m going to go drink a cup of water, do some jumping jacks, and knock off a few of those “boring” tasks. I know that doing these tasks are necessary and interesting once I get them done. For example, by the end of the day I should be more conversant with Flash video and Version 2 components, which would be awesome. However, because I know I can do it, the intellectual challenge isn’t there.

    I’m reminded of an observation I made Impulsive versus Methodical Action, regarding the drudgery of doing lab work:

    Progress is made by keeping your head down and pushing, often without a promise of immediate reward, until it is done.

    I have to clarify that “without a promise of immediate reward” actually means “deferred reward”. The impulsive side of me enjoys the quest for knowledge as it is happening, so the reward is immediate. The application of that knowledge through process takes time, and the reward is deferred. For people that enjoy the mechanical process side of things, the reward would be immediate. In my case, I have to be aware that my brain is going to try to distract me with more immediately-gratifying things. Like writing a blog post clarifying my thoughts, which in a way is helpful.

    SUMMARY: Grogginess == Brain Tricking Me

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  • That New Job Smell

    February 18, 2007

    A friend of mine has to get up early to head to work everyday, and makes a habit of stopping at a local place to get breakfast at 7AM to ease into the day. This sounded very interesting to me.

    As a freelancer with tendencies to stay up late, my daily working hours tend to fluctuate with the particular mix of projects I have going on. As a result, I’m always constantly fighting my sleeping rhythm to keep some semblance of normal waking hours. Complicating my working rhythm is the ongoing effort to be more social, meeting friends at normal times after work. The net result is that I’m almost always tired during the day, which affects productivity and keeps me up late. I also like seeing the sun, however briefly, for at least part of the day. The net result: I don’t really feel good about my working schedule, because doesn’t synch my social life, sleep cycle, and working energy in a productive manner.

    So, on Monday I’m going to start a two week rhythm-establishing experiment. That is, I’m going to:

    • Wake up every day at 630AM
    • exercise (that’s new, too)
    • shower
    • head out to the same place every morning to grab a cheap cup of coffee
    • Review the day’s work to be done, and compare to the previous day’s progress
    • Map out the course of the day, with some immediate tasks (probably using the Emergent Task Timer)
    • Head home, and do a 4-hour work block
    • Eat lunch
    • Do a second 4-hour work block
    • Eat dinner
    • In bed by 1030PM

    The theory is that since not having a daily schedule (my 2006 experiment) didn’t quite yield the results I wanted, training my body to be awake at predictable times might be the way to maximize my productive juices. Also, I’ve been playing this game called Harvest Moon, which is a farming role-playing game for various console gaming systems. Every day my in-game alter-ego has to wake up at 6AM, hoe, seed, water, and harvest a variety of crops throughout the year for profit. On top of that, there are festivals to attend, search mines for treasure, fish, and make various farm improvements. You can raise chickens, sheep, cows, train your dog to fetch balls, so they can win prizes that impress various woo-able girls. It’s a lot of work; in fact, there’s no way you can do it all in a single game “day” because your character becomes fatigued and will pass out. As I played the game I got the distinctly uncomfortable feeling that I was learning stuff about life that I should have already known.

    The last time I did anything like keep a regular schedule was when I worked in Boston, and I was very keen on maintaining a working rhythm for reasons of energy. The morning and evening drive would sap a lot of my energy, and ultimately I found it wasn’t workable because I ended up not having any time to do my own things.

    As I thought about the old job, I remembered the extra sharpness that a new job tends to bring to one’s self, so for fun I am going to pretend I have a new job:

    So I’m working for a company run by this guy Dave Seah, and my primary job function will be to get his business and design processes running smoothly to improve both workflow billables and customer service, to replace the ad-hoc system that’s in place now. I’m sure I’m going to be horrified by what I see. My secondary job function is to build the tangible assets of the studio, both what can be “seen”, and in terms of “packaged process” that can be readily shown or applied to client businesses. At the moment, the assets are scattered all over the place. An overall consideration is that the systems I put in place support—not impede—the creative process that is at the heart of the practice. Mr. Seah hates accounting, but he’s accepted that a certain measure of this (I’m thinking daily review, at minimum) is necessary. Lastly, Mr. Seah wants to regularize the workflow and project management such that no one has to burn the midnight oil every single night. Steady, measurable, profitable progress is more highly valued…we want people to go home every night to spend time with their family and friends, and to feel good about the progress they’re making in terms of the project work and their own growth. The challenge will be to maintain a high level of creative energy as well; innovation and original thinking is so very highly valued here. Creative energy and methodical process would seem to be mutually-exclusive ideals, but I’ve got some ideas.

    Oops, it’s 1045PM already, and I’ve got to get to bed. I’m working Monday to get a head start even though it’s a holiday.

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  • Scientific Creative Methods

    February 15, 2007

    Earlier this week I’d been working to create a nice typographic template using Cascading Style Sheets (CSS). This is not my favorite kind of work, but having identified my methodical process challenge a few days ago, I pushed myself through it without the usual two scoops of drama. I ended up with something I felt good about, a solid bit of code that I can reuse in the future.

    For technical people, the production of useful code is not a big deal, but it was notable to me because of my shift in perspective. The way I had approached the challenge was like that of an industrial researcher, which isn’t surprising given I’d just seen a documentary about the life of African-American chemist Dr. Percy Julian. I have a natural curiosity about the way things work together to achieve some end, but I find the implementation to be more of a chore when I’m working by myself. Having seen that documentary, however, I could recast the drudgery of working around Internet Explorer’s CSS bugs as part of a greater process. I was, in fact, applying the scientific method to my creative work, which is a methodology that I am naturally drawn to.

    Perhaps the missing creative methodology I lamented over in my earlier post has been with me all along; do I just need to broaden my views on creativity and science?

    (more…)

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  • To Do Distinctions

    February 15, 2007

    I was getting ready to sleep at a normal hour last night, the first time in possibly months since I’ve done so. This was a notable event as far as I am concerned, and feeling good I leisurely checked-off the things I’d do tomorrow. However, I was also thinking about some comments I’d come across at Freelance Samurai on the latest version of Emergent Task Planner with regards to getting three tasks done being (in his words) “worth bragging about”. I had thought the idea that getting just three tasks done a day might not go over well, particularly in the productivity-obsessed workplace. And truthfully, I wasn’t quite clear myself why this was important.

    As I drifted to sleep, it struck me that there are two kinds of to-do items I have, and there is a different mentality that goes with each of them. Allow me to be facetious and call them to do and to get done tasks:

    • To Do Tasks These are the activities that actually move me forward toward being in a better place. Personal projects, relationship building, research, and so on. By accomplishing a task in the “to do” list, I’m talking about creating a better future for myself than the one I’d have if I let the status quo reign.
    • To Get Done Tasks These are the activities that allow me to remain in the status quo. Project work that brings in revenue, doing the laundry, washing dishes, doing my invoicing and “budgeting”, maintaining my various servers, and so it goes. There are a lot more tasks in this category than in the first.

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    p>The reason I have chosen this phrasing—to do versus to get done—is that they reflect my attitude: “to do” is active voice, “to get done” is passive voice, which is kind of how I feel about it. Yeah versus bleah.

    From a functional perspective, it would make more sense to say Tasks that Better Myself versus Tasks that Must Be Done. However, I must acknowledge that when it comes to doing things, I’d much rather be doing the ones that move me forward than just keep me going.

    Another way of describing this functional split: development versus maintenance tasks. Development tasks represent new opportunities, whereas maintenance tasks keep you where you “are”; it goes without saying that we’d prefer not to lose ground, so making sure that this doesn’t happen is a big part of our daily regimen.

    Part of the anxiety we feel comes from the feeling that we are losing ground, and this is part of the appeal of Getting Things Done. We can’t really address the development tasks until we have our maintenance tasks under some control, otherwise the gains made will be short-term. I’m in that cycle myself: I have bursts of creative progress which hint at future awesomeness, but this comes at the expense of having a clean house and creating a viable (read: profitable by process design, not luck) business methodology. What I have been missing, I suspect, is a methodology that incorporates dreams into the very fabric of the operation. The Concrete Goals Tracker, in hindsight, was my intuitive way of trying to give shape to that desire, but I didn’t realize that it was a dream visualization tool. That has interesting ramifications for future design work.

    Note that I’m not talking about tasks I “like” or “dislike”. There are things in the maintenance pile I enjoy, such as my perverse interest in server administration. There are also lots of things in the development pile that I don’t particularly enjoy, or have trouble doing.

    I’ve addressed the duality of how I make/create/produce in Impulsive vs. Methodical Action; what I’m talking about in this post is related in that there’s the sense that I’m expressing frustration with one of them. I certainly tend to favor impulsive (undirected) creativity over methodical (directed) creativity, but I perceive the world as desiring the latter. In terms of tasks, I much prefer tasks that seem to be about the future (dreaming, building) than the ones that are just maintaining my foothold (maintenance) in life.

    I think I can now clarify my position that getting three tasks a day done is a noteworthy achievement: I’m thinking of those tasks that are about the future, as oppposed to the ones that just need getting done to maintain your place. Tasks that are about the future are the ones that will help you achieve your dreams, and yield (at least in our imagination) the richest awards. Getting even one of those done a day is an incredible accomplishment. Keep in mind also that when it comes to dreams, we’re talking big units of tasks. A dream is not expressed in terms of small sums accumulating over time. We reserve that language for talking about our maintenance tasks, and you can get many of those tasks done in a day. If you’re a dreamer, though, you sense that those aren’t the tasks that will light your heart on fire. It’s no wonder that you are procrastinating…what’s the point? And yet Life rewards those who maintain themselves.

    And now, coming back to action: getting those maintenance tasks done requires the following of a methodical process, and an appreciation for “small sums” accounting. For me, those are all challenges. Framing this in the scope of a larger mission or perhaps a role may help me accept this, if the role itself embodies my dreams. For example, with the methodical stuff, knowing that this is part of the scientific process makes it palatable because now I’m not just doing gruntwork, I’m playing scientist :-)

    This line of inquiry is leading to another process insight regarding Scientific Creative Process, but I’ll save that for tomorrow.

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