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  • The Need for Nooks

    March 7, 2009

    I’m in Silicon Valley for work again, putting the finishing touches on a year-long museum interactive with my buddies at Inquirium. This is the 10th trip I’ve made out here for the project, and the monthly disruption of my routine has given me some insight into what I need to maintain my own peculiar sense of work-life balance.

    First, there’s focus. When I’m traveling I’m generally more focused on getting things done; the same applies when I’m away from home. The three aspects I’ve noticed on this trip have been:

    1. REDUCTION IN OPPORTUNITY TO GOOF OFF

    One reason I’m remarkably focused is that there’s not that much to do. I didn’t rent a car, and this time I haven’t made an effort to contact other people in the area. The first few times I was out here I was meeting new people and getting acquainted with the San Jose / Campbell area, but by the 10th visit even the novelty of Fry’s Electronics has worn off. I’m not feeling the same pull to get away that I do at home.

    I found this very curious because once the novelty of a place has worn off, you’d think that I’d be looking for more opportunities to create something interesting. However, one critical difference is that I’m away from my local squad of friends, disconnected from the people that make my ocial context meaningful. Here in California, the readily-available context is work and hanging out with my cousin. Since I’m also working with my cousin, the context is entirely self-contained. We get along well and have similar but differently-grounded foundations in creativity, so it’s a satisfying context to be part of. However, it’s a context that I’m not in control of to the same extent that I am back home.

    2. SELF-LIMITING SENSE OF ADVENTURE

    Of course, If I were more adventurous I’d be getting on the BART and exploring the Bay Area. However, I’ve found that I really don’t like exploring places by myself just to see what’s there. Instead, I like knowing there’s a clue or puzzle piece waiting out there for me; in other words, I tend to emphasize doing fieldwork over pure exploration. I want to solve mysteries and collect evidence first hand, connected the dots in ways that are non-obvious. I’m thinking I have to come back to California and spend a month here to do it right.

    I think the reason that I feel on-hold out here is because I know I shouldn’t be starting new mysteries. It’s way too easy, way too fun, and way too distracting. I need to maintain the bleak programming mindset necessary for the type of work I’m doing, piling brick after logical brick on top of each other in a methodical and robustly-architected manner. So the limitations I’m putting on myself are not a sign of lameness, but are due to my need to limit new distractions. This is easier to do because I am also lacking the seasoned co-adventurers with whom I’d go exploring. If I were settling in the area the latter would be a priority, but I’m here for work. When I come back for that month of exploration, it will be an entirely different story.

    3. BREAK IN CONTINUITY

    Back home, I have several ongoing projects that all are based, in one way or another, on interests shared with my friends. Because friends are usually nearby–and I naturally like to spend time with them–I’m pulled toward shared adventures nearly every day. These are all going somewhere, and being able to tend to these projects is one of the great advantage of freelancing. When I’m on the road, however, these opportunities are no longer available, so there isn’t as much of a reason for me to want to switch out of work mode. Work is, after all, rather interesting and represents its own continuity. So, when I’m on the road, work becomes the most accessible continuity train to develop. Admittedly, I spend a lot of time emailing people back home the first few days I’m on a trip, but they tend to dwindle off after the 3rd or 4th day as I readjust my focus to what’s nearby, away from what I left at home.

    Everything I’ve listed up to this point can be grouped under shared context and continuity of purpose and community. This is my number one priority. However, the number two priority is building up my resources so I can afford to spend more time creating that sense of purpose and community. In sundry terms, that means working on my website, clarifying and reorganizing what I’ve already written into more useful forms, and producing objects of utility for a market that shares my values.

    Strictly speaking, this kind of work is largely independent production and doesn’t require interaction with other people. In fact, it’s work that is best done by myself, so I can adopt the “editor’s mindset”, the “designer mindset”, and so on. There should be nothing stopping me from doing that, and yet I’ve found that being out here in California is very hard on me when it comes to following through with these activities. Instead, I sit and feel unsettled, not sure what to do. It just hit me that what I was missing was just a good place to sit, some corner where I can gather my thoughts and draw the right energies:

    4. FINDING A CONVENIENT NOOK

    A QUIET NOOK affords me the right blend of solitude and energy for whatever task I have at hand. This was not a problem for the programming work, as interaction with my cousin is the nook; he and I can talk face-to-face about what we’re trying to do and it creates the necessary environment to be productive. For blogging, however, I realized that there just wasn’t anywhere to sit in the house that wasn’t subject to the whirlwind energies of his young children, with comfortable seating and lighting and spaces to put things. I had subconsciously been compensating for this by spending time at nearby coffee shops, an environment that provides abstract people energy with a measure of solitude. However, it just isn’t quite the same as being truly comfortable; the quality of the thoughts I have at coffee shops tend to be more social than productive in the way I need. There is probably a special nook for every kind of activity I do, and I’m looking forward to finding those secret places that are lurking in plain sight.

    Having identified this desire to have a nook, I have now escaped to a wooden bench in the front of the house, which is comfortingly close to humans I care about but still away from everyone. It is the right nook for writing this blog post. I can see the cars on the street outside drive by and feel that I’m part of the world, but I’m in a place that kind of feels like my own, just for an hour or so. I’m feeling more comfortable than I have in quite a few days, being able to sit here and type into my laptop.

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    DSri Seah
  • GHD Resolution Review Day 3/3/2009

    March 3, 2009

    It’s my first Groundhog Day Resolution Review Day for 2009, and I still haven’t gotten around to defining my Groundhog Day Resolutions (GHDRs). In my last rambling report on the process, I had attempted to outline a comprehensive approach to the definition process; rereading it, my attention wandered within seconds, so I have just distilled them into a set of steps:

    1. First define A VISION: a story of the “more-awesome” version of the life that I want.
    2. Next, itemize my existing strengths and tendencies (both good and bad).
    3. Finally, create three levels of action, built around the existing strengths from step 2:
      • Define several tangible steps that can be achieved in a short amount of time (15min to 1 hour)
      • Define a tangible achievement levels, built from tangible steps, that results in a new vision-related resource or capability.
      • Devise a means of measuring the effectiveness, through counting or direct observation, of your new capabilities.
    4. Tell people you’re going to do this, and then do something.

    This methodology, incidentally, is based on the basic video game theory I apply in designing simple games.

    I’ve procrastinated long enough in defining step 1 and step 3, and it’s probably because my mind automatically is trying to optimize my decision making with thoughts of THE BEST WAY, THE MOST EFFICIENT STRATEGY, and MAXIMUM FLEXIBILITY, which tends to make me want to go read some more books or babble onward because there is no way of knowing which approach be the one that is most optimal. So I’ll just pick a place to start and, trusting to hindsight being 20/20, will find out later.

    THE VISION is, in its simplest form, to live a meaningful life of individual creativity and contribution. I’d like it to be self-sufficient, and I want to have a sense of authorship. So without mulling it over too much longer, I’m going to declare just one resolution: Create a shop filled with stuff I like. This has been a long time in the making, starting with the original drive to sell printed paper pads over a year ago. And most recently, I’ve been inspired anew by reading British fashion designer Paul Smith’s book You Can Find Inspiration in Anything. My sister had given it to me some time ago, and while I had flipped through it I had not read it closely. There is a marvelous introduction by author William Gibson, which makes perfect sense editorially-speaking if you’ve read Pattern Recognition. The philosophy of the Paul Smith enterprise itself is not about fashion, but about connecting playfully with individuals; fashion just happens to be the medium through which Paul Smith makes this happen world-wide.

    So…let’s make that shop. Just make it. Design and optimal thinking can come later, once I have something I can look at.

    To this end I have hired a personal assistant for 40 hours this month. The way this came about was completely serendipitous: I was talking to my friends Sid and Sara at Plastic Camera Studio. Sid shoots portrait and editorial photography in the Southern New Hampshire area, and Sara shoots fine art photography using the albumen process. Sara also works in various adminstrative capacities at educational institutions nearby, but I had never thought that this was an opportunity until we were all hanging out one night in the studio jabbering about trips. I was thinking about planning a trip up through California over a month, meeting people and doing design gigs while writing about the process. Sid told me about their plan to someday return to California for a photographic expedition, California being the only place they didn’t linger the last time they did a cross-country tour. As we discussed our ideas for funding our trip, it occurred to me that there was quite a bit of overlap in the planning. Shared interest + administrative experience + willingness to see what happens lead to me commiting to 40 hours.

    I’ve never had an assistant of any kind before, but I’m finding that it’s sharpened my attention on certain matters. For example, I’ve had to think of how to explain what I’m trying to do to someone in the room with me. Also, some old management habits surfaced to be reshaped in the context of “being in charge”. And as always, Clarity is Fleeting, so we’re trying to establish some means of communication that helps provide the continuity and context for the work. Right now that solution is BaseCamp plus brief meetings. After assigning the rather nebulous task of reviewing all my Printable CEO material, we regrouped and decided to focus on getting the store working. That means (1) making new product and (2) selling it online. She’s gathering contact information for all the printers in this area (and a few online) that we can establish some kind of relationship with, and after that she’ll be establishing how one goes about using Amazon Fulfillment. The goal is to have something in operation at the end of this month, or be ready to do it.

    In the meantime, I am in crunch mode on the Museum project I’ve been working on over the past year, a large-scale interactive children’s exhibit for a Holocaust museum opening this April in Skokie, Illinois. This is the final crunch, so I have had very little time to blog or think about new business in May. However, I’ve had a few ideas:

    • I may be offering some coaching hours to see if I like it; this isn’t much different from the highly-appreciated “executive sounding board” service I sometimes offer to clients.
    • I also do want to pick up the development of the long-dormant Flash version of the Emergent Task Timer as a way of getting familiar with the current crop of Flash development tools. Adobe AIR? Maybe even iPhone development, though I dislike AT&T so much that I would probably just develop with the emulator and team up with someone.
    • There’s the repackaging and reorganization of content on davidseah.com itself into a more accessible magazine-like format.

    I’ve always liked the idea of having a magazine, but I’ve never known exactly what it would be about. When I started blogging, I blogged about what I liked in hopes of discovering just what those main categories would be, but never thought that was enough reason for itself. Reading about Paul Smith’s approach, in which he just sold stuff he liked, I’m getting the idea that this might be the approach that work for me: write about the stuff the catches my eye, with trademark obsessiveness. There is always a market, though small, for quality obsessiveness packaged well. Will it be enough to sustain me as a business operator? We’ll see how it looks on April 4th, our next GHD Resolution Review Day.

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  • Outlining Books for Learning

    February 8, 2009

    My learning process is one of mining words for insights that I can structure into a form that my brain can understand. I revisit my outlining process to try to find a way to make it more efficient.

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  • The Groundhog Day Resolution Process

    February 6, 2009

    Yep, I still haven’t posted my Groundhog Day Resolutions, but they’re coming! It’s my belief that a good set of Groundhog Day Resolutions help guide me toward a more-awesome version of my life. In short, a good resolution should be grounded in working principles and produce measurable, tangible results over time. What’s even more important (to me, anyway) is that my true aspirations are woven deeply into the phrasing of each resolution; otherwise, they’re just one more thing that I “have” to do, and they are easily ignored. A great resolution, by comparison, should generates a feeling of joy through practice.

    While I didn’t actually get to writing the actual resolutions, I did write down the process I’m following. Here it is, for people who are going through a similar phase in their life.

    The Investigative Process of Designing Resolutions

    I’ve scoped the admirable qualities of a well-crafted resolution above, so I need to answering the particulars in more detail:

    1. What does “more awesome” look and feel like? Without these details, it’s impossible to form an actionable strategy because I don’t know where I’m going.
    2. What are my actual underlying aspirations? This is the “why” beneath the “what” of question 1. It comes from self-knowledge, which includes an awareness of what strengths I genuinely enjoy exercising the factors that contribute to a sense of accomplishment and well-being.

    3. What motivates me to work? These are the practical rules of thumb that, when practiced, create the conditions under which my aspirations can come to fruition. Conversely it also means figuring out what conditions lead to procrastinate. A misalignment of my work with the ideas behind questions 1 and 2, I know, is one such contributing factor.

    4. How do I measure the fruit of my efforts so I feel like I’m making progress? The whole point of a resolution is, after all, to produce a positive change. I think it’s pretty simple when I just follow these two steps: first create something that is tangible, then show it to someone. When I focus on producing tangible things that have persistence in my world, they are what I end up measuring.

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    p>When it comes down to the actual craft of writing a resolution, it’s important to word them so each question here is addressed. They then because self-contained mantras that are capable of reminding, guiding, affirming, and assessing my progress toward awesome. At the same time, it’s important to realize that resolutions are a work in progress; to coarsely paraphrase Stumbling On Happiness, we can imagine a future that we think we’ll like, but we won’t know if we will really like it until we get there. Therefore, I am pretty flexible about dumping resolutions when I determine that they’re not quite as wonderful as I’d imagined.

    1. Let’s Start with the Story

    Ok, enough putting off the inevitable. First I need to visualize the “more awesome” version of my life. Over the past few weeks I’ve been writing and telling my friends little stories about what it might be like. In public, this is slightly embarrassing because I automatically feel that people calculate the odds for and against desired success, but overcoming this hesitancy is crucial; the development of a strong mental picture gives me something to work directly toward, and it also thickens my skin against negative-but-critical feedback.

    So here’s the basic story I am telling myself:

    I’m chilling out with some creative friends at home, and I get a call via the website that there’s a company somewhere in the world that has an interesting workflow challenge. As it turns out, I’m already remotely collaborating with some people in that country, which also has an ancient mechanical bell tower that I’ve wanted to see in person, so it’s a no-brainer to move shop for the next month and rent a place. I have money socked away and coming in from various goofy projects, and my office fits neatly into a roller bag, so I decide to head out. I call the cat sitter and round up available travel companions. I let people in the target country know that a bunch of us are swooping in, and impromptu gatherings are in the making. The company that contacted me, excited that I’m now planning to come see them and their country in person, suggests some excellent places for a long-term stay. On top of that, I get to meet the people I’ve been collaborating with remotely, and an in-person work session is guaranteed to give us a huge boost in productivity on our side projects. When we get there, I spend my days doing some on-site work and writing articles for the blog related to the processes and objects that catch my eye, further enriching the offerings on davidseah.com. I get to sit in the sun a lot and practice making friends with strangers, something I have never been that comfortable with, but am learning how to do. I encounter some intriguing cultural differences and have interesting conversations with random people, sparking the idea for a new form, process, or product. Caught in the moment, I quickly draft the idea out using my design software and send it to my trusted printing and DIY fabrication sources; the product is available for sale within 24 hours, and plans for making your own version for free is available for download. This is how I fund my crazy independent enterprise for myself and a selected group of similarly-minded nutjobs.

    This feels about right. Now that the story is there, it’s time to pick everything apart and figure out how to make it happen. If I was lucky enough to have a disapproving aunt, I could try telling her the story and write down all her objections in a notebook. Lacking such a resource, I’ve had to develop the disapproving aunt persona in my head and berate myself. This analysis can be quite lengthy; for an example I’ll dissect just the first sentence:

    I’m chilling out with some creative friends at home, and I get a call via the website that there’s a company somewhere in the world that has an interesting workflow challenge.

    Auntie says:

    • What makes them so creative? Are they your real friends? And why do you waste your time hanging out with them?
    • How does a company find your little website? And why on earth would they call you? And long distance to boot…expensive! What if you’re not home? What if you mess up?
    • What is “workflow”, and why do they need YOU to be challenged by it? Why is it even challenging to you?

    In the process of raising every possible challenge and coming up with a justification, I develop a greater sense of what it is I want to do, why I want it, and how I’ll do it. And I usually start seeing recurring patterns in my responses; these often contain the seeds of insight that help me through the next three steps of the investigative process. I’ll save people the trouble of reading all these justifications now.

    2. What are my Aspirations?

    If question 1 is about the “what I want to do”, question 2 is more about the “why” of it. In my case, the ultimate justifying “why” is that I want to feel good about what I’m doing, and not be all stressed out. I’ve written about this subject a lot over the past few years, so I won’t bother to go through the derivation again. Instead, I’ll just tell you what’s important to me right this moment:

    2A. Find positive-minded, conscientious, self-empowered, kind people. 2B. Create, explore, design tangible things with those people literally by my side. 2C. Sustain myself through original products and authentic writing. 2D. Develop the courage to seek new experiences that drive the process of discovery creating, and sustaining.

    I distilled these aspirations by noting what experiences tended to make me feel energized or drained. I also noted certain patterns when I was procrastinating or otherwise feeling frustrated in starting a project. Lastly, I acknowledged that I have some uniquely personal values and hangups; working with them and expanding my comfort zone has been one of my continuing life themes. Sometimes I just have to accept them and move on.

    3. What are my Work Motivators?

    Over the years I’ve found that there are a few productivity tricks that seem to work for me if I’m not overexposed to them. This can be any dirty trick that seems to work consistently; the idea is to make a list of techniques that you know you can rely on to produce results. There’s a reason why your mom nags you…sometimes it works! However, I’d like to keep to positive motivators as much as possible and use the negative ones to symbolize a failure of my own character.

    Anyway, here’s the list that came to mind; there’s no particular prioritization or order:

    • Watching “Saving Private Ryan” makes me feel like I’m not appreciating my liberty; it’s good for pushing myself to start almost any daunting project. They died protecting our freedom, and here I am whining. I do not want to be a whiner.
    • When someone asks me a genuine question, I am compelled to find some kind of answer. Especially if there is an emotional/aspirational element behind the question.
    • When it fulfills someone’s dream (not my own, though).
    • When there is a pretty girl involved. I’m a guy…sue me.
    • If I can think of a novel, inspired, and somewhat crazy way of getting something done. Heh heh.
    • If I’m making something to give or share with someone else, and I want it to make a perspective-changing impression.
    • If I haven’t tried it before, and the insight I get from the activity can’t be gotten except through direct experience.
    • If there’s at least a two-for-one advantage that can be gleaned. I love it when I can meet multiple goals with just one burst of effort.
    • When I’m working side-by-side with someone, it’s a lot easier for me to get started and work. Possibly because I like brainstorming and am fascinated by how people make decisions.
    • When I get immediate and continuous feedback. Especially from other people.
    • When I can make the justification that the task has a moral/ethical imperative that must be immediately met.
    • When I see an immediate and rather clever way of doing it, if I do say so myself.
    • When it might be funny AND useful.
    • When someone needs to step up and no one else is doing it. This is something I do more reluctantly now.

    Likewise, there are approaches that hold zero motivational power over me:

    • It’s something I know would be good for me, but I have to work on myself. Too abstract.
    • When I don’t have the information I need to make a decision about something I don’t particularly care about.
    • When the source material is so poorly organized that I get distracted by just how bad it is, and am consumed with the desire to rewrite it for them.

    And then there are environmental factors:

    • When there’s no one around to talk to about the project.
    • When it’s too cold, and/or too dark.
    • When I have eaten too much and get too sleepy.

    I could go on and on, but I’ll cut to the chase and distill the above insights about myself into a couple of master motivators for 2009:

    3A. I need to have people in the room with me for my creative process to function at its peak, side-by-side. 3B. My urge to create is driven by my interest in the dreams and aspirations of other people. If I don’t sense that energy, I don’t give a crap. If what I’m doing does not yield an exchange of that energy on an individual-to-individual level, I am not motivated at all.

    On a side note, these were tough pills for me to swallow, and I’ve tried for years to overcome them. However, I’ve come to realize that this need for people energy and camaraderie is the essence of my personality. I can stretch it a bit, but I can’t fight it forever and expect to be happy. What’s funny is that since I was an introverted and shy child that went into engineering as a career choice, my assumption was that I didn’t like people. WRONG. I suppose the move into engineering was based in the need to first gain some control over my environment in a way that felt credible, and the first endeavors I gained control over were writing and computer programming.

    4. Counting the Fruits of my Labor

    My favorite part of this process is figuring out the stuff you get to have. That’s because I find there’s something VERY SATISFYING about having a collection of things that you really, really like. Having the right stuff on hand can be a tangible reminder of what’s important to you. And the more of it you have, the better you feel. Whether it’s photo albums, gold coins, fountain pens, Kinder eggs, Chogokin, Hummels, or stockpiled toilet paper, the stuff you choose to collect can be deeply symbolic and affirming.

    Likewise, the resolutions I’m designing are also symbolic and affirming. To make them “real”, however, they need to manifest tangible experiences. I have not yet had the pleasure of experiencing the future I can imagine, so to avoid the sense of being cheated I need something now that will help remind me, without a doubt, that I’m getting there. For me, it helps if it’s something I can count: visible, tangible, something I can hold in my hand and contemplate. And the more such artifacts I collect, the more I will feel that I’m making headway; having “stuff” that’s related to the fulfillment of my resolution is the proof that I’m living it.

    If you follow what I’m saying, then to fulfill a resolution means acquiring (or making) stuff that can work as an agent of change in your universe. Not everything falls into that category, but I think there are two general forms that do:

    • Physical objects that have value or are the tools that will help bring about the change you want. Show it!
    • Positive impressions and memories you create in other people and yourself through direct action. Connect and Act!

    These are, of course, the underlying principles of the Concrete Goals Tracker form design.

    Even if you are the type of person who has the discipline to just do what you think you should do, you need to do something and show the results to people for anything to happen. If no one sees what you’re doing, no one will react or reach out to you. People won’t share that piece of knowledge that you were missing because they didn’t know what you were doing. You won’t remember you were looking because you don’t have a collection of artifacts to remind you what you really love. Remember:

    • If you can align what you create with appreciative people, that opens unseen doors to success. It’s a foundational skill.
    • If you can align what you create with what you value in life, you may find your calling or passion. I’m still working on this; these Groundhog Day Resolutions are designed to hopefully chip myself onto the green.
    • If you can demonstrate your passion by showing the world what you’ve made, you open yourself up to opportunity.
    • If your resolution is more about changing a personal relationship, then the “stuff” you’re making is called action. Actions are visible, tangible, and memorable. Empty words and good intentions are not.
    • Each resolution that I craft needs to identify a tangible object or action. This is the proof that the resolution is being followed, and the accumulating pile of memories contributes to the sense of progress.

    So, figure out a way to make stuff. Make impressions on people with that stuff. Make memories with that stuff.

    With this in mind, it’s relatively easy to figure out which stuff I really want by searching the previous three lists for objects, and picking the ones that seem critical. Some of the stuff mentioned is gear that helps me overcome a challenge. Some are consumable resources that bankroll or otherwise support the endeavor. And some stuff can be seen as momentos of achievement that help you remember the particular actions and paths of opportunity that you took.

    The ones that matter are the ones that I think I would value the most; I can always change them later. Generally, they are:

    4A. People of the type I’d like to hang out with. 4B. The writing and design work I do to attract those people. 4C. The means to find those people, and derive income from what I create. 4D. The action of landing an international client, traveling to their country, and being able to pay for it with other income.

    Getting Specific

    I’ve described a detailed yet fairly general set of guiding criteria. There are hundreds of solutions that potentially fit, so the challenge is to commit to a few strategies and see where they go.

    I still haven’t crafted the master resolution statements specifically, but I have enough to chew on while I’m flying to California tomorrow. The goal will be 10 resolution statements that can then be bundled into a concrete goals tracker form; this is exactly the sort of thing that the form was designed to encourage.

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  • Groundhog Day Resolutions 2009: Kickoff!

    February 2, 2009

    This is the third year I’m doing my New Year’s Resolutions on Groundhog Day, a switcheroo that gives me a whole month to get the year rolling while celebrating one of my favorite holidays. With each year I’ve changed the ritual, but the fundmentals have remained the same:

    • Make resolutions on 2/2
    • Check progress on 3/3, 4/4, 5/5, and so on until 12/12
    • Enjoy the holiday craziness until next Groundhog Day

    Last year I threw in an extra break around 6/6 because the weather was too nice to think about stuffy old resolutions, and I made 7/7 a day of rededication to figure out if my goals had changed. 7/7 also happens to be Tanabata, the Japanese Star Festival, which is a good day to make wishes that will affect the rest of the year. However, I didn’t make much progress. This year I hope will be different because I have a much stronger sense of my destination than before.

    Last Year’s Debacle

    Last year’s run of Groundhog Day Resolutions (GHDRs), however, didn’t go as planned. I encountered month after month of failed progress. This got to be pretty damn depressing, but I had an epiphany on 11/11 regarding a master resolution that is at the root of it all. 2008, in hindsight, was a year of coming to terms with what it is that I want to do, and how I want to do it. Without that context, my resolutions rang hollow and were not compelling.

    This year, I can say that there’s one thing that I do automatically, and that’s seek the essence of my experiences so I can distill and communicate what I’ve learned to people who are on similar journeys. That is my master function. It’s only after years of paying attention to what I was doing when I was slacking off that this became clear.

    This Year’s Debacle-in-the-Making

    The master function begets a master goal, which is to embrace my newfound nature and realign my activities to make it a reality. That means getting away from previous labels like “designer” and “writer”, which were comforting in 2008 but not action-oriented. That means looking for role models and situations where I can credibly apply the master function (and therefore, not starve) in a down economy. I am lucky to have a role model in the form of the late Douglas Adams, who I knew of previously as the famed author of The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy. As a child I imprinted on the BBC radio dramatization rather strongly, and one of my earliest personal vows was that I would work very hard to make random yet compellingly-authentic associations between very different things, which I perceived as being at the root of the humor. But it was only when I listened to the audio book of the post-humously published Salmon of Doubt that I gained a full appreciation for what Adams had achieved: a self-funding vehicle to have new experiences and write about them in the context of having an enjoyable time with his friends, which were comprised of scientists, writers, researchers, technologists, and other genuinely interesting people doing odd things.

    It’s a rather daunting and perhaps even sacrilegious to want to walk in the man’s giant literary steps, but is it any different to be a child dreaming of being an astronaut like Neil Armstrong? An F1 driver like Michael Schumacher? Magic Johnson? Gary Gygax? Stan Lee? Steven Spielberg? Nicholai Tesla? Buckminster Fuller? Kim Possible? Well, the difference is that I am an adult and should know better…the estimated success-to-effort ratio is so low, probabalistically speaking, that to have these kind of dreams at my advancing age is officially a waste of time. At my age I should be thinking of guaranteed payoffs and compounding interest on treasury bills, planning for a respectable retirement…

    But it would be terrible to not actually try to walk the path and see where it goes. And so, I dedicate 2009 to finding out just how deep the rabbit hole can go.

    Things to Come

    I’m going to save the actual Groundhog Day Resolutions for a later post because I’m trying to keep the writing shorter, but here is an outline:

    • The details of my resolutions are related to growing into a larger kind of life. I will have to pick the salient details that contribute to success in this kind of life so I can create a Concrete Goals Tracker template that can track incremental progress. This should be an improvement over last year’s process.
    • In my recent musings I’ve been pondering “fears” that have held me back; these might more accurately be called trepidations and negative associations that cause me to not even consider certain endeavors. I’ve also been cataloging energizing activities that I move toward naturally, with the attendent catalysts that inspire and demotivators that drain my momentum on any given day. Identifying the individual sources of energy and friction will be important so I can be mindful of both pitfalls and opportunities to make the process go smoothly.
    • Likewise, I will need to ensure that I am in the right environment that is conducive to making the kinds of changes I want, and that I also have the right tools to harness energies and defuse depression bombs.

    There’s an underlying pattern here that is common to any navigational challenge in unfamiliar waters:

    • Having a clear idea of where you want to go, and a means to recognize when you’ve gotten there.
    • Being able to continuously read the environment so you can anticipate what might be coming, and being mentally prepared to handle it.
    • Acquiring the experience and knowledge that helps speed the process along.
    • Knowing when you’ve got to change your plans for something better.

    I don’t have the complete picture yet, but part of the excitement/trepidation is not knowing what that will be until I get there. Nevertheless, I’ll see what I can do in the coming days.

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