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I’ve been thinking a lot about education lately, as part of my general interest in how people learn to empower themselves. Also, my love-hate relationship with Mathematics has recently been rekindled.

I’ve taken my fair share of math, but nothing very theoretical. I was in the more advanced math courses in high school, took Calculus / Differential Equations / Linear Algebra in college as part of the engineering requirement, and was exposed to numerical methods in grad school. Throughout the entire experience, I felt like I was **missing some point** and **lacked an intuitive feel** for the material…it bothered me. On the other hand, my favorite math class was one taught by an actual Math Department professor, who would get up in front of the class and excitedly derive all the steps for solving a particular type of differential equation. I would get caught up in the excitement of watching the hunt unfold before my eyes, but would invariably bomb the exam when I would try to reproduce his steps. As it turned out, what everyone else was writing down was just **the end result:** “if the equation matches form A, apply pattern A.”

Oh.

## A Failure to Understand

What I liked about that math class was the **passion of the math professor**. Looking back, I think that sense of vicarious excitement obscured a critical realization: **the rules of communication still apply to technical and scientific education.** Communication, which I am defining as a knowledge transfer between two or more individuals, is difficult when the *contextual basis for understanding* is unknown by one of the parties. For example, when the business guy talks to the web developer guy about improving some aspect of the company web site, **confusion reigns** if they do not have a common vocabulary. Same if their motivations are different. The business guy needs to learn to speak Webbish and the web guy needs to learn BusinessSpeak if there’s any hope of understanding what the other really means and what their needs actually are, with emphasis on **understanding**.

I was recently working through a discussion of the **P vs NP** problem in Computer Science. At first glance, it meant absolutely nothing to me, but because a friend was working with it I was more determined than usual to cross my gulf of understanding. The gist of the P vs NP problem is, I think, whether certain computational problems thought to be “solvable” only through brute-force computational methods are actually solveable through some yet-do-be-discovered shortcut; should such a shortcut exist and be proven, it would have tremendous ramifications for the world of mathematics and computer security. I’m fairly confident that I’m not stating it completely because there is a LOT of background material that I am not very familiar or equipped to understand. I’m not confident about making an accurate statement, and this bothers me.

To have confidence in my understanding of P vs NP, I would need to have a deeper foundation in the underlying mathematical concepts of computer science, down at the hoary theoretical level: turing machines, for example, which is are theoretical underpinning of the von Neumann architecture that I studied, briefly, as a bright-eyed young computer engineering student.

My understanding of Turing machines is not very mathematical. I know that turing machines are named for Alan Turing, the “father of Computer Science”, so-called because he came up with the idea of “computable numbers”. That is, if a machine could *write* numbers in some fashion and then read them back to perform simple operations with them, that would **unlock the entire range of mathematical operations** that any person could conceivably do. People had already been engineering machines that could just “read” numbers, fixed into the mechanics of the design (all pre-computer machines are “read-only” in this way). However, my understanding starts to falter because I have not read Turing’s original 1936 paper; I just peeked at it and my attention span bounced off it like hot oil on teflon. I just happen to know **the story** behind it, and that’s been enough for me…until now.

## Mathematics in Story

One of my favorite childhood books was **Alvin’s Secret Code**, which introduced me to the idea of codes, ciphers and the stories around them. It also taught me how to be aware of codes in everyday use; there’s one part in the book where Alvin recognizes that the tags on retail items encode the model number and year of manufacture, and he uses this knowledge to catch a salesperson in an outright lie. Yes! This book probably is what formed the basis of my interest in computer programming, 3-4 years prior to me actually finding out what a computer was, by **establishing a framework of assumptions**. The assumption might be stated as follows:

You can encode things to mean other things, it’s just a matter of knowing what the code is and what the intention is behind it.

It occurs to me that having this imprinted on me in the 4th or 5th grade may have been absolutely critical to my development as a person. I have also just discovered that there was MORE THAN ONE ALVIN BOOK, and that THESE BOOKS ARE NOW WITHIN MY GRASP. When I was a kid, I was overseas and our school only had the one copy. But I’m starting to digress…back to Turing!

Another one of my favorite books is **The Diamond Age** by Neal Stephenson. Toward the end of the book the protagonist, Nell, learns about Turing machines in the context of an interactive learning simulation that she has bonded emotionally with. The Turing machine is represented as a giant mechanical puzzle castle in which she’s trapped, with all the denizens controlled by links of special chains. By learning how to alter the chains, Nell learns how to manipulate them to eventually control the entire castle. In the process of playing through the story, she has learned how to understand Turing machines and computer programming at the most fundamental level, eventually achieving a level of mastery that serves her later in life.

The most recent book I’ve read has raised the Ghost of Turing yet again: **PopCo** by Scarlett Thomas. It’s about Alice, a 20-something toy designer, who grew up with her mathematician/cryptographer grandparents. This gives her a somewhat unusual perspective on life because she’s grown up with mathematics and mind puzzles; her idea of quality time is helping her grandfather factor tables of prime numbers. While this book doesn’t talk much about Turing specifically except that Alice’s grandmother knew him, it did **rekindle my interest in the mathematics** from the **cryptography/story** side of things, much as *Alvin’s Secret Code* did when I was 12 years old. There’s a lot of math in PopCo too, and apparently the Math community finds it mostly accurate. As I read, I was struck by the sheer number of interestingly-named concepts in Math, like *Godel’s Incompletion Theorem* and *The Travelling Salesman Problem*. It had been a while since I’d considered the **rich history** of thinking in Mathematics, and I found myself wistfully thinking that I had missed out. I had only really experienced the **memorize or be punished** side of Math, and you know what? **That sucks!**

Careful readers may have noticed that it tends to take two observations for me to jump to a conclusion. When **three** form a chain of reflection, that’s when I am moved to action. It comes down to this: I don’t want to be in the dark about Math anymore. It’s time to wade back in and see what I can do about it.

## What’s in the Way of Learning?

In grad school, there was this one guy who had a very strong mathematics foundation, and he could run rings around the other students in the class when it came to naming theorems. He and the professor would fence mathematically over the theory while the rest of us watched with sullen fascination. This was a class I did particularly poorly in, feeling the familiar sense that I really didn’t know what was going on at an intuitive level. I’d characterize the feeling as follows:

- I didn’t have the sense of connection between the idea being expressed and the desired result. In other words, I don’t know why this is important, other than the professor says so. Even when I asked, the answer was expressed in a way that I couldn’t connect with.
- I didn’t have a strong theoretical foundation that draws from a layered understanding of the basic theoretical elements of mathematics. Therefore, my footing was unsure, and the few connections I
*did*have were tenuous at best. - I therefore concluded that
**I was screwed.**:-)

At the same time, this was actually a rather enjoyable class because I learned some interesting ideas about numerical methods and finding solutions computationally. However, I couldn’t really navigate the landscape because of my lack of solid foundation. I postulate the following barriers existed for me:

**Jargon.**There’s a lot of it. Special terms mean special things, each backed by fundamental concepts that forms the basis for further argument. Without that basis, it’s difficult to understand anything that’s going on. In more technically-oriented groups, the jargon itself starts to resemble**paper currency**in that it’s no longer backed by a “gold standard” of conceptual understanding; that is, you can actually get stuff done by just trading patterns back and forth, because they’re assumed to work. The tendency is for a technician to think and communicate in terms of the symbols, not the ideas behind the symbols. Or, they can only teach in one way; they’re just not used to thinking of other ways to communicate the idea.The ramification is this: a technician can teach process very well, but not necessarily*understanding*; if I were to give myself a lot of credit, I may have been a victim of this type of teaching in my earlier years. Being realistic, I would have to admit that I just wasn’t very interested either, except in those instances when I could**see how the mathematical concept was relevant to something I could touch or see**.**Concept.**There are a lot of interesting concepts in Mathematics, though to this point I have only been able to appreciate them on the level of story. I like stories where someone has wrested an entirely new way of thinking out of the commonly-accepted view; effecting a change in perspective, so to speak. I also like the stories where someone grasps a critical distinction in an existing process, alchemically transmuting our understanding of a long-held truth into something profound.**Seeing beneath the surface**is one theme behind both these types of stories.The challenge is**learning**all the various concepts. Since concepts build upon each other in a certain way for them to make sense, the concept chain needs to be built rather carefully. Even more important, the**chaining insight**needs to be provided and made very clear. I’ve lost count of the number of textbooks that buried that insight between 15 steps of otherwise-useless derivations. Why? Does no one see this except for me?**Acceptance.**I have difficulty being interested in things I can not see and verify. Why am I so untrusting? It’s because I have**been burned**numerous times by making face-value assumptions. The first time I remember is when my Dad had given me a disappearing coin box magic trick made out of wood. You could put a coin in it and it would seem to disappear after you closed and opened it. So enthralled with this marvel of deception that I brought it to school. As I was showing it to some classmates, the box became jammed and I worriedly expressed my concern. A fellow 2nd grader proclaimed, “Oh, I can fix it” with such authority and confidence that I unquestioningly handed it to him. He then raised one hand, and**slammed the box**with as much force as he could muster. It**shattered**into three pieces. A moment of shock ensued, after which he gathered himself and said, “well, I guess that didn’t fix it” before beating a hasty retreat.Even after this seminal experience, it took me a long time to realize that there is a**world of difference between belief and knowledge**when evaluating a person’s claimed expertise. In terms of my Mathematics education, it meant that I reacted more to the the ability of the teacher to credibily explain the depths of the theory in a manner I found satisfactory, than his/her thorough knowledge in the*process*. I needed to know the why, otherwise I was stuck. I am*just now*starting to loosen up in this regard, because I’ve realized that**conditioning and training**without so much darn THINKING is incredibly useful.**Relevance.**Any group of people will have the tendency to look inwards toward the group, not outside toward the rest of the world. The reason for this, I think, is that our attention is**shaped and incentivized**by what’s going on right in front of us. In other words your attention will be on the group and its relevant issues because you can’t get away from them…you’re*in*the issues, and they naturally form the default frame of reference. This allows the group to speak with greater efficiency, but when it comes to passing on information to a dissimilar group, a gulf of understanding forms that is sometimes difficult to breach. This leads to apathy and disinterest.I didn’t see much of the relevance of the math when I was a kid; it was a world with which I could not form a common frame of reference, not with teachers nor with my life. It was just something I was forced to do. The textbooks would try, making feeble attempts to show “Math in the Real World” between chapters. Typically, they would retell the fable of some “famous” mathematician, using a somewhat book-reportish style that didn’t appeal to my life as a plugged-in child of the 80s. Or they’d explain how if you knew math, you could be a rocket scientist! Neither approach was particularly compelling or*real*. Just to be sure of this, I recently went to a used book store and flipped through half a dozen math textbooks of various vintages. The ones from the 80s and 90s were particularly awful, which brings me to my next point.**Presentation.**By this, I mean the**visual design, the quality of writing,**and the**typography**of our textbooks. When the math teacher failed to reach me through lecture, the textbook was my last hope. They have all been, in my experience, uniformly bad—I just didn’t know it at the time. I just knew my head hurt and I was confused, and assumed it was MY FAULT.It comes down to this: a lot of textbooks are poorly written, even when the author is an expert in their field. It’s partly because of the observations I’ve just made above, and also due to a lack of familiarity with**writing**and**presenting an accessible argument**. An OK textbook should, at minimum, transcribe facts accurately in context with the processes that bind them. A GOOD textbook would present the reasoning behind those processes. The hypothetical GREAT TEXTBOOK would have the facts, processes, and reasoning presented in a fashion**unencumbered by**ambiguous grammar, lousy semiotics and eye-straining typography. The layout will take information design principles and semantics into account to support the logical structure of the material. AAAAND, as if I’m not asking for too much already, the book would be written to**facilitate conversation between people**. That’s a very different focus from anything I’ve yet seen.

## It’s not the Material, It’s the Presentation

So I’ve listed a bunch of personal hangups I’ve had with math-related textbooks, and I haven’t even **engaged the mathematics** yet; all that other stuff is in the way! I suspect I am not alone.

I don’t think it’s a question of people understanding that MATH IS COOL. **MATH IS INACCESSIBLE** to the average person who isn’t lucky enough to have a grandmother that cracked German and Japanese Enigma transcripts during WWII. **METHOD of PRESENTATION** that we have access to, on average, has been rather **MEDIOCRE.**

The same argument can be applied to other fields of course, not just Math.

## It’s Also the Attitude

Accessibility is an issue that sometimes comes up with Jazz (not that I really know anything about Jazz, but bear with me). Some people will argue that it takes a refined ear and a knowledge of the history of the art to truly appreciate the more esoteric material; I’m fine with that. What bothers me is when it this knowledge is used to **divide** people, raising the “elite” at the expense of the “non-elite”. I don’t have a problem, mind you, with being *selective*; after all, you can’t expect to have a meaningful conversation about a specialized field with a non-specialist, or expect a non-specialist to do specialist work. My issue is when the elitist attitude leaks into the educational context, demoralizing students. Therefore, I think it’s important for the material to deliberately project an **empowering, inclusive vibe** via Mathematics as a **tool** that can be mastered. This is different than just being “automatic encouraging” and showering kids with gold stars…kids *know* when they’re being pandered to. What’s far more important, I believe, is for kids to feel that they are being **empowered and included** by **someone else** that means something to them. It could just be their own self, driven to understand something that has tickled their fancy in some way. It could be through loving, intelligent parents, or that cool auntie, or the mysterious former spy in the house next door teaching you something about codes.

## Extrapolating My Next Step

I’ve just vented a bunch of things that have been on my mind, with the intention of clarifying the following:

- What’s wrong with me and Math?
- What can I do about it?

My immediate intention is to start reviewing Math from some arbitrary starting point, *really* taking a hard look at what is being said, and why. Ultimately, I would like to be able to understand the aforementioned **P vs NP** problem and be able to follow the mathematical logic behind it. In terms of impossibility, this is pretty much like John F. Kennedy pointing at the moon in 1961 and saying “Yeah, we’re going to put a guy ON THAT, Nikita!”; it’s a very deep rabbit hole, and it happens to be one of those Millenium Prize problems. I’d be happy to just know what the heck they’re talking about, and it happens to tie in with many childhood interests that I have never been able to engage at a higher level. It would be great to make some progress there, and slay a few demons at the same time.

I’ve tried this in the past, actually, but this time I have a new angle: **Treating the educational experience like a crime scene**. I’ll write a bit more about that sometime soon.

## 7 Comments

I love to read your thought processes on stuff like this, David. Maybe I find them so fascinating because they are sort of models for me on how I can begin to think about and pick apart some of the same kinds of issues in my own life. Which is very cool.

In

Alvin’s Secret Code, was the spy next door bedridden or ill through most of the book? It sounds a lot like one of my favorites as a kid, and I’m really excited about possibly finding the title again.Lastly, a completely off-topic question: I’m fascinated by your choice of the word “incentivized.” (”…our attention is shaped and incentivized…”) I’m not going to pick on you for it, but I am curious about why you didn’t use “motivated.” Do you think it is just that the folks around you use incentivized and so it is the top choice in your toolkit, or do you feel like they mean slightly different things, and incentivized catches your meaning better?

Thanks for another intersting post, and I’m definitely going to be adding

PopCoto my reading list—it sounds great!Thanks R.M.! It’s been so long since I’ve read Alvin’s Secret Code, that I can’t remember if the agent was bedridden or not…it sounds plausible, because he never seemed to leave the house and SHOW Alvin stuff. There was a treasure at the end too, I believe.

On incentivized: Heh, I actually paused on that word myself and was struck by it…it just popped out. I think in my mind, “incentivized” sounds more like a carrot-on-a-stick, business-feral term, while “motivated” feels more positive. I was not feeling positive at all when faced with confusing math instruction, and “motivated” was one of those words that would be applied in the negative: “You should be MORE MOTIVATED to learn, Dave”. My thinking was more like, “SHOW ME (incentivize) this material and CONVINCE me that this is relevant to something I’m interested in”. So maybe that’s why I kept it. I was sort of reliving those memories, which probably colored my wording.

I think I understand what you’re saying about incentivized—when I thought about it before asking the question, it seemed to me that “motivated” was a little more internal and self-driven, while “incentivized” was tempted into action by something external. I totally get what you mean about motivation being both very positive and at the same time something that othe people beat you down for not having.

Thanks for indulging my curiosity!

“alchemically transmuting our understanding of a long-held truth into something profound.”

Wow. Write on.

I think you will enjoy the book “Five Equations That Changed the World”. Here is a sample from the introduction: “In the language of mathematics, equations are like poetry: They state truths with a unique precision, convey volumes of information in rather brief terms, and often are difficult for the uninitiated to comprehend”. I thought the quote was in perfect Sync with your post.

Dave! This is a wonderful post! It echos my experience when, in college, I had been taking the math for math majors calculus and was getting A’s and loving it, then switched to the engineering calculus and found it incomprehensible. The math majors’ class was all process. The engineering class was all conclusion: use this formula for that result. I almost failed the engineering class because the way that I’d always taken exams was not to memorize the formulae prior to the exam, but to remember the steps – the process – of getting from here to there and derive the formulae in the exam. It was a real eye opener for me. You expressed it better than I ever could.

Now that I’m in the textbook industry, my eyes are being opened to just how much the process is designed to create really crappy textbooks. Here’s a great article on how textbooks are made these days. The Muddle Machine (if I somehow messed up the link, copy and paste this: http://www.edutopia.org/magazine/ed1article.php?id=art_1195&issue=nov_04 )

I greatly admire your capacity to tease out and present your challenges well, like you have with this post.

I’m looking forward to reading what you write about the crime scene. Sounds like you’re making a story of something. Cool.

I think in this post you outlined the issues with math. Oftentime, a person needs to clearly show the problem

beforethat person can start to solve it. So it makes sense to hear this. I’m also looking forward to reading what you think are the great things about math. And I like the quote that Joan pulled out from your writing. Keep finding yourself in math! Cool!