I originally had a meeting scheduled out-of-town today, but it was postphoned. So, I allowed myself to sleep-in to about 0830AM. Today will be day for continuing to work the strategic plan.
I’ve spent the morning, from around 0830AM to 1030AM, puttering with breakfast, registering my GPS with Garmin, updating the maps, and answering emails. I’m itching to get out of the house. I’m still feeling quite tired. I am pretty sure that it’s some form of depression, brought on by a feeling that I don’t have a firm grasp on a success strategy that will ripen predictably. I am craving surety. It is up to me, and me alone, to craft that plan. This underscores how alone I am in this endeavor, which is the depressing part. Having recognized that, though, I can put it outside myself and remember that this is just one of those times when you have to push alone for a while. It’s part of the hero’s journey, after all. If it’s good enough for heroes, it should be good enough for me.
I got out of the house around 1100AM, and spent the past 90 minutes working on a diagram. I just checked mail, and am going to try to lay the diagram into InDesign and see what it looks like as a bunch of boxen.
Between 1400 and 1515 I ran errands: updated credit card info for gym and E-ZPass, got some lunch, and vegged out a little. I’m now feeling rather tired. I may crash for a little, but I am going to write a little program for myself to follow when I awake to log the time;
From log, I see that I must have fallen asleep (sitting at the desk, and then somehow ending up on the arm chair) at around 3:30PM. I woke up at 5:30PM. I’ve been cooking dinner for the past hour or so…it’s almost done.
6:30PM – I want to resume work on the strategy-to-task breakdown document I’m working on. This has kind of consumed my subconscious and conscious modes for the past few days. It’s something I want to figure out. It’s hard. I need to keep chipping away with it, singing loudly if possible. In lieu of singing I might have to just play tunes real loud.
9:30PM – I decided to work on the RTT 2011 updates instead. This was something I’d been putting off because it was a lot of work. The past two 3 hours to put together, but at least it’s DONE, and adds to the library.
While I don’t particularly like doing the tedious work of marketing and doing documentation layout (writing documentation is another thing), I must admit that it is satisfying when it is done.
And now…I should probably go to sleep and wake up early tomorrow. Would rather stay up. But maybe if I go to sleep now, the desire to work will carry into the morning.