(last updated on April 29, 2014)
Sis and Co. are visiting this weekend, and we all ended up sleeping in. The funny thing is that each of us had woken up early, saw no one else up, and decided to go back to sleep. I rolled out of bed just before noon, having enjoyed the indulgence of being warm under the covers reinforced by the two snoozing near my feet. Another late weekend start, just like old times. What’s different about today’s sleep-in, versus times in the past, is that I can compare this to the past 5 days of “starting my day on purpose”.
Lost in Time
While I greatly enjoyed sleeping in, our day is really just getting started at 3PM. We could have done a ton of stuff by now if we’d been up earlier. Now, we will have to scrape what dregs of fun the bottom of the day still offers, and I am feeling a little sad because of this.
As I was saying, the past five days have been started on purpose, and today that feeling that I’m in “catch up” mode is even more sharply in relief. I have to figure out what activities to triage so the day can finish well. This used to be the way I felt every day, and it wouldn’t usually bother me. It would be a problem if I had project work to do, and I would then be more concerned about maintaining project pacing around fixed events such as scheduled conference calls, face-to-face meetings, and scheduled deliverables. My daily existence was like that of a drifter wandering his way between places. It reminds me a bit of Bill Murray’s character in Lost in Translation, an apparently talented and capable person who is being swept along by events he can’t quite remember initiating, but nevertheless bounded by them. We all have the ability to nudge ourselves into a new position, amusing ourselves to pass the time, and to make statements about what’s important, but these aren’t actions as much as they are conditioned reflexes to maintain the status quo. In the case of not waking up early, I let the status quo happen to me instead of creating it. I think that is what’s bothering me today.
It’s now Sunday, and I woke up a little earlier today after having gone to sleep at 4AM. We all tend to stay up too late and eat too much good food when we get a chance to hang out, so I need to expand my methodology to include other people. This is a delicate thing to balance without being overbearing or irritating. I’ll reflect on this next week.