SUMMARY: This is the last daily diary for a while, because I think I’ve gotten what I needed from the 2-3 weeks of doing it. NOW, to write up a summary post!
SUMMARY: The highlight of the weekend was an eating experiment to see if I could carbo-bomb my system into sleeping.
Summary: Last night I had the realization that it may be my ATTITUDE toward work that is the greatest contributing factor to daily productivity. Up to now, I’d been looking for the resistances; I’d never thought that my own body would want to sabotage my own ambitions. But you know what? It’s done it before.
Summary: Eating lots of sugar, and realizing that it isn’t sugar crashes, sleeplessness, or lack of exercise that’s making me sleepy. It’s sheer lack of engagement and poor attitude.
SUMMARY: A day of experimentation with sugar, and logging the sensations surrounding it, in an attempt to see if there are any discernible patterns.
SUMMARY: A day that didn’t go as planned in most respects, but was insight-generating! Productive in an non-planned way.
I went to sleep later than usual (or rather, desired) and tried to wake up on 7 hours of sleep. Was difficult. Much resistance. I analyzed the feeling of not wanting to get up: Was I physically tired? Not really Was I mentally tired? Maybe. My mind was quite scattered, and flitted from thought to [...]
SUMMARY: It’s Monday, and I’m short on sleep, and I’m a little tired and cranky. But I’m awake! The day was spent getting comfortable working at home, looking at the environment critically to see if there’s a way I can make it more productive. That would save money on Starbucks.
SUMMARY: Social social social! And a recommitment to working at home, at actual home, by spending some time organizing my workspace and arranging for the things I need to be nearby.
SUMMARY: A very social day. Second day of comfort with social activities, and a renewed sense of not just purpose, but confidence in that purpose.