Not Waiting. Not Hurrying, Either.
SUMMARY: I've been busy, and feeling a little overwhelmed by the sense that nothing was getting done. There are two ways I deal with that, and a few mind tricks that help the process go more smoothly.
I've been feeling rather overwhelmed with the number of projects and inquiries I have going on, to the point where it started to feel like I wasn't getting anything done. There's two approaches I have to this:
I need to get more organized! - The classic response would be to start being more diligent with deadlines, make commitments and keep them, practice a methodology like Get Things Done, and be more careful about tracking my time. There was a time when this used to work, but I have, like the Borg, adapted to these techniques to the point where they are ineffective.
Accept the inefficiency and keep moving. - This is more the mood I've been in these days. In the absence of any publishing schedule or even work schedule, the best I can muster is to just keep making things and see what happens. It feels vaguely irresponsible, but perhaps this is the mentality that will get me through the doldrums. If I take a step back from myself, I can see that I'm actually being pretty productive on all fronts, but without external feedback it all feels like it's spinning in circles. Plus, I'm impatient and tend to want instant gratification, which tends to make me feel less motivated.
In either case, what gets me moving is the direct involvement of another individual. Someone to work with. Someone to show things to. Someone who has their own needs and schedule. This leaves me in the peculiar position of needing to have a client other than myself to help motivate me along with my personal projects. A client is not a coach or cheerleader, mind you. In this scenario, the client is someone who has a shared need that is applied to a different goal than mine. The Agenceum stuff is a good example of this kind of symbiosis. My goal is to write and create more original content, and in the meantime I need to generate some other income that's commensurate with my marketable skill set. The goals of Agenceum's hypothetical clients are to "get on the web right now" for little money, and then expand as they become more comfortable with the medium. The need we're sharing is the technology of the website (me to package my existing knowledge, them to be on the web) and starting a new venture (me to start this business selling simple websites, them to learn how to effectively market on the Internet). Our goals, however, are our own.
The quote, "Do not hurry. Do not wait." popped into my mind last week completely out of the blue, and I was so taken with the idea that I've been trying to apply it to my own situation. I'm interpreting "do not hurry" as take the time to do it right. And I'm taking "do not wait" as meaning drop everything when the moment of inspiration strikes and do. Which is totally the way I tend to do things. However, as a designer/developer doing work for hire, I'd have to amend my interpretation of the second phrase to be, don't procrastinate.
I'm finding that the most effective technique for not procrastinating, for myself anyway, is to turn off the lame part of my brain. That's the part of my mind that sits around the watercooler and thinks of things that I'd rather be doing. Or that there must be a better way of doing things, or that this is not very exciting work. When I turn off that part of my brain, I can let the other part of my brain loose to solve whatever problem is in front of me. That is always exciting, especially when it's for another person that has need of my expertise. It happens more easily in the presence of another person, I think, because when I am talking to someone I generally try to be fully present and optimistic about doing something that's interesting to both of us. When I'm by myself, however, I tolerate much more whining because, well, it's from me and I assume that I would be tolerant of anything that is produced by my own brain. But you know what? It's not acceptable. This is like when I started going to the gym, and my brain was telling me that I was feeling uncomfortable and I should stop. If the trainer hadn't said, "you can keep going", I probably would have stopped. And you know what? My body was utterly capable of going further. And so it is with my own productivity; there's a part of me that makes excuses, and since we're close, myself and I, I tend to take myself at face value. Perhaps that is the true secret of productivity: Don't take yourself at face value. Find another source that will tell you, objectively, what you're really doing, and then learn to act on it.



The “switch off the lame part of your brain” approach sounds promising. This is indeed a big problem for perfectionist procrastinators and for me, getting practice in just letting go of thoughts that slow me down has been working pretty well. As it’s not always possible to get objective input from others, we better learn to cope with it ourselves…